Why do I live a life where I have to sense everyones feelings and stuff…

Why do I have to live a life miserable by always being the one begging for their apology..

I feel so pity.. I feel so sorry for myself..

I even feel embarrassed to everyone, that I am this kind of a person..

Why cant I just speak up and won’t even care how they would feel..

Why do I have to even think of their feelings first rather than mine..

Why can’t I be always be confident and stand up for myself..

Why am I so AFRAID.. afraid.. afraid of what….? them looking down on me..

Yeah, I guess I am..

But I cant take it anymore.. I dont want to be like this anymore..

I dont want to always look up to their feelings if they wont even care about mine.. I dont want to be always pitied.. But I want others to think that I also have the so called PRIDE…

This will take a while for me to develop.. But I wont give up.. I wont.. I definitely Wont.. I need to be strong and confident.. And I need to think for myself too.. not always others..

I need to throw the me - always kind to others.. Too much kindness -For it Is not good at all..